So they basically stole over one hour worth of me remaining still, and I was so relaxed. It seems I’m solving problems more than solving the technique’s process itself.
I feel like giving up, but if I do that, I’ll get nowhere, but honestly, if people wake me up often, I swear I’m going to strangle someone.
And it’s hard trying to hide that fact that I’m using this program to induce lucid dreams because the people in real life would think I’m a nutjob or something (now I feel like a closet mad scientist!)
Oh well, time to forget my worries of today and sleep and combine this method with a WBTB. Can’t let a few mishaps get me down!
I just know that when I get this technique down, I’m going to hug the crap out of this blonde figure I’ve been fantasizing long before I started getting into this test.
Her name is Eva, she’s from a game called Metal Gear Solid 3. I had several dreams about her (the first time, I didn’t even have her in my mind, she gave me a letter with the letter “M” on it. And since then I’ve been going crazy into making her my dream guide.
I had a lucid dream where I was following her, but I couldn’t keep up. She’s my motivation right now to dig through the pains and mistakes that is hindering my success with this method.
I know I can do this, because I would love to hug the crap out of this woman when I do succeed.
Isn’t she beautiful, what guy wouldn’t want to work hard to have a lucid dream with this blonde beauty???
And blonde females are a dream sign for me, so this isn’t only fueled by desire, more like a relationship where I’ll learn to love others again. Because I’ve been antisocial ever since I started lucid dreaming since june 2011.