So they basically stole over one hour worth of me remaining still, and I was so relaxed. It seems I’m solving problems more than solving the technique’s process itself.
I feel like giving up, but if I do that, I’ll get nowhere, but honestly, if people wake me up often, I swear I’m going to strangle someone.
And it’s hard trying to hide that fact that I’m using this program to induce lucid dreams because the people in real life would think I’m a nutjob or something (now I feel like a closet mad scientist!)
Oh well, time to forget my worries of today and sleep and combine this method with a WBTB. Can’t let a few mishaps get me down!
I just know that when I get this technique down, I’m going to hug the crap out of this blonde figure I’ve been fantasizing long before I started getting into this test.
Her name is Eva, she’s from a game called Metal Gear Solid 3. I had several dreams about her (the first time, I didn’t even have her in my mind, she gave me a letter with the letter “M” on it. And since then I’ve been going crazy into making her my dream guide.
I had a lucid dream where I was following her, but I couldn’t keep up. She’s my motivation right now to dig through the pains and mistakes that is hindering my success with this method.
I know I can do this, because I would love to hug the crap out of this woman when I do succeed.
Isn’t she beautiful, what guy wouldn’t want to work hard to have a lucid dream with this blonde beauty???
And blonde females are a dream sign for me, so this isn’t only fueled by desire, more like a relationship where I’ll learn to love others again. Because I’ve been antisocial ever since I started lucid dreaming since june 2011.
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Pro tip: what you are currently doing, how you practice lucidity from day to day, is probably good enough as it is – what you need to change or improve is why you are doing it.
You mean the purpose of me lucid dreaming? Meeting the blonde isn’t my only intention. I’m doing it for a reason because my dreams have been constantly bashing me with blondes who try to get my attention. Combine that with the randomness of my dreams overall, and it makes me want to find out what the heck my mind is trying to tell me.
This is just a stepping stone on my overall reason for becoming lucid, and of course the image may set a negative intention that I’m just using it for lust, but it’s because my mind is being a little cruel to me recently. So I’m experimenting to see what it’s trying to tell my by making a Dream Guide, once that’s settled, I’ll start to focus on using lucid dreaming to find talents I never knew I had, and of course to do things like flying etc when I can become more lucid.
I’m actually more focused on becoming lucid than meeting a random blonde, so the fantasy isn’t really affecting my overall goal, it’s just to stop this nonsense I’m getting from my dreams.
Lately it’s mostly all killing or just going into a whole new tangent that makes me wonder what goes on in my mind.
And if I do change the way I’m doing it, my mind WILL start going crazy with the blonde thing over again. (Trust me, I would change my current objectives if I could and wasn’t afraid of what my mind would do next to me).
I had an OBE/AP (I’m open to the possibility that those are real) where I met another blonde, and she told me she was my dream guide, and that’s something I don’t want to ignore because if I do so, they might take another form to try and get my attention, which will distract me from my overall reason for lucid dreaming.
Sorry if I didn’t provide more explanation for this “lovey dovey” reason for lucid dreaming 😛
But that’s just an answer if you meant it as me dreaming about the blonde, if it’s about being a mad scientist, I was just adding a little sarcasm there 😛